Life

Things have been slightly off the past few years. I watch thing's change the way I never thought they could. Life went from being a crazy teenager to a single mother. Things started to get better until things that seemed impossible started to happen. My life started to change, and I started to look up at all angles. I got engaged with a guy I thought never existed, and I thought my life was complete. Suddenly I had a random ER visit that got me to having a CAT scan done... I, not even 5 mins after my scan, found out that there was something wrong by watching a neurologist slowly approach my room. Suddenly I blinked and I was in getting ready for surgery. Watching my family there saying their prayers, and trying to make sure the smile didnt leave their face before they had to put me under. That's when I should have known things could get worse. Waking up and not being able to swallow, not being able to breath, having a hard time keeping my eyes open, not being able to do things for myself, not being able to catch the time before it disappeared, and when finally starting to get better not being able to walk. I had to reteach myself in the hospital to walk just so I could go home to my son, and to be able to see people I thought I would always see. Imagine that... shortly after that at the age of 2 my son was diagnosed with epilepsy. Oh how things have gone wrong, and now its just trying to make me beg on my knees on the floor. The sweetest most innocent child has to turn around and end up with epilepsy. The hospital visits, the surgeries to help him learn, let alone hear, the ER visits, and the hospitalizations. The time I never knew I would actually sit in the hospital. How scary it was to live in a hospital to make sure I wasn't waking up to another episode. Time has changed everything in my life. Time I will never get back, and don't know if I would ever choose to change afraid of the change in outcome. Love, Live, and Laugh all for my Kaiden Leigh.